Today is a day in April, I am home in Tasmania and I have changed the way I drink my coffee.
For years I have been a medium strength coffee girl, with a splash of milk (the cooler the coffee...the faster I can drink it), and probably too much sugar.
Late in 2015 I started to think about the amount of raw sugar and flour I consume. This is because I am, in my own opinion, good at avoiding processed foods (easy in Australia, much harder in Sweden). However, at home we cook a lot and I started to wonder about how much sugar or sweetner I was eating just from coffee, tea.
A lot of upheaval has happened in my life and my partners since about early December. Although I felt change coming on earlier in the year.
These changes have been both internal and external.
Business, family, and personal.
I don't know if these shifts are lasting or if they are lessons to try and learn from, or an actual changes that could hang around for awhile.
I am not in a mental space to write even a letter to some friend that might still remember to check this blog and get updated on my life. I am in a mental space to write out some truths (as I see them) only this forum is too public.
So I am just leaving myself some clues in case in a later year I want to look back at this time to jar my memory.
(Speaking of memories...I have decided mine is unreliable and in fact littered with details added by my imagination. I realized this when speaking with friends about another friend who was not present with us, about her relationship to the place we were (my favorite dumpling house in L.A.), only to find that she had never been there, I had just slotted her in because I was so sure she'd love it. More than that, the dumpling house isn't even specifically the type of food she does love...it's my version of what I think she loves).
To sum up what I would like to remember at a later date is this-
I have decided to drink my coffee with just a splash of cream- (Monte).
Perspectives do change about people and what they mean in my life, even perspectives I might swear would in fact, never change. I keep proving this-so it is time to actually believe it.
There are reasons that I am where I am (mentally and physically) but I miss my friends whenever they are not within an easy drive or flight time.
The inevitable emotional arc
California will never completely leave you
No matter how you age, if you survive life is going to keep happening so try to participate fully.